Give unto me your troubles
I'll endure your suffering
Place onto me your burden
I'll drink your deadly poison
She followed he into a glade watching him sit. She looked around then back to him. She frowned, and then sat in front of him. He stayed quiet and she started to look around again. Why did he bring me here? When she looked back at him and he was looming over her. She yelped and scooted back.
“Kagome you need to learn to be aware of your surrounding first of all, if I wanted to I could have killed you.” he walked around her and sat next to her. “Second you need to learn to rely on your instincts as well as your mind.” She nodded.
“What’s the third?” he grinned.
“Don’t get your self killed.” She rolled her eyes.
He spent most of the night lecturing her. Eventually when he did finish he decided that now was a good time to jump at her as her first test; see how well she was paying attention. He turned away making it look like he was going to leave; he peeked back to see her backing away in the direction of her camp instead of turning. After the first few paces she did turn, he wheeled around and charged her. She looked back her eyes getting wide then she ducked and yelped. As he went over her she backed as far away as she could. Kagome couldn’t stop shaking.
He skid to a stop the turned on a dime charging her again. This time she got low and when he was almost on her she tackled him knocking his legs out from under him. She turned around and was about to hop on him. But of coarse he wasn’t going to let her win; she had to earn that. As she pounced and laded on him he rolled over pinning her under him.
She yipped then eyed him. She started to shiver as he moved his muzzle so her nose almost touched his. His red eyes gleamed in the early morning light; suddenly he blinked and moved away from her. He looked up at the sky seeing the sun coming up.
“One last thing, changing back.” She looked down at her self and grimaced as he moved off of her. “It wont be painful like the first time, now concentrate on your human form and just think about changing.” She closed her eyes tightly and slowly she started to shrink. When she looked at her self again she was her self.
“Wow.” She looked up at him and watched as he started to shrink and all of his features contracted and started to change back. When he was done he smiled a small smile. In her amazement she completely forgot her fear but only for a moment.
“I’ll walk you back.” She nodded; him being so nice to her was really scary.
They walked and said nothing, by the time they got back the sun had risen above the horizon. He moved a branch out of her way and she stepped in front of him seeing everyone asleep. He stepped out behind her as she walked forward; he was really, really creeping her out. As she approached Kouga’s eyes shot open and he looked over. When he saw her she didn’t have the chance to take another step. He had her gathered in his arm and was carrying her away from the taiyoukai. Kagome wrapped her arms firmly around him taking a deep breath filled with his musky sent. Sesshoumaru frowned unsure as to why he cared if the wolf had his hands all over her.
“Kagome are you ok?” she nuzzled his neck and deeply inhaled again. Making Kouga freezes; she was taking in his sent she had never done this before. He could feel Kagome start to relax in his embrace.
“Yes Kouga… I’m fine.” She kissed his neck but some how it felt wrong, she frowned and looked at him.
“Kagome what’s wrong?” she shook her head.
“Mm its nothing I just feel a bit strange is all.” She looked back to see Sesshoumaru standing there. “Thank you Sesshoumaru.” She felt strange saying it.
He nodded and she whished she knew what he was thinking. She caught a glimpse of Sesshoumaru's eyes as he walked away. Then a barge of emotions slammed into her, confusion, bitterness, anger, a strange sense of entertainment and something else; she could see all of this floating threw his golden pools. In moments he was gone leaving her bewildered and more than a little frightened.
“Kagome.” Inuyasha walked up next to her as she watched his older brother leave. “What happened?” Inuyasha and Kouga knew that he hadn’t deflowered her but she was acting strangely.
“Nothing… he just gave me some pointers on how to fight like the youkai I have become.” The boys looked at each other and shrugged unsure of what to make of the whole situation.
“Come on Kagome lets eat.” Kouga wrapped his arm around the young miko youkai’s shoulder then she looked at him and smiled nodding.
They didn't know that Sesshoumaru sat in a tree not too far off watching the girl. Why? Was all he could think, why had my wildest and weirdest dream come true? He watched the beautiful former human sit with the hanyou and wolf by the fire. Somehow them being so near her bothered him, like she already belonged to him. He huffed in exasperation; he had never let his hormones get the best of him. Again… why? He leaped away having decided to dream-walk and see how she reacts to him in a more intemeant situation. Many discard all dreams as flights of fancy that have no meaning, no relevance to the real world. They would be very surprised how accurately you can predict the reaction of a person based on their dreams. He left as the others woke and stumbled out of bed.
“So Kagome…” she looked at Miroku and smiled gently. “Are you sure your going to be ok?” she scowled at him.
“I’m not a fragile little cherry blossom… I will be ok.” He nodded as she stood up and stretched her black tail.
As she relaxed it immediately moved to rest on her shoulder. As everyone watched she never seemed to notice. She looked around and raised an eyebrow then looked at her shoulder where her puffy black tail rested, it looked like a stretch of moonless starless midnight. She touched it finding it was silky soft, she wondered if Sesshoumaru’s felt that way. She looked up at Sango and smiled having a sudden and wonderful idea.
“What Kagome?” Sango looked around as her smile grew.
“Lets go to a hot spring.” Kagome walked over to grab her bathing stuff as Sango smiled and nodded. She looked at her tail and grabbed an extra towel.
As they walked Kagome took a deep breath taking in everything that she had never smelled before. She looked around finding every color was more vivid and she seemed to be able to feel every stick, stone and leaf under her feet. Sango looked at her awe struck friend.
“Kagome.” She looked at Sango a wide smile plastered on her face and joyful mischief playing in her eyes.
“Its strange, but its great!” she squealed. “I feel like I was missing something that I didn't know I had, but it was hiding the entire time.” She forced her grin to remain when she got a whiff of Sango’s sent… now she knew one reason why Sesshoumaru avoided humans. She wondered why Kouga didn't have the same aversion to humans.
We smell horrid; then she realized she’s not human any more. Kagome managed to push it away hoping that she would get used to it. When they could see the spring Kagome looked around as she entered the clearing. She sniffed then looked at every bush she could fine. Sango looked at her friend funny as she striped, then she shrugged and hopped in the pool. Kagome was in right after her, as she settled in she could feel her tail become waterlogged and sink to the bottom.
The bath was swift and quiet. Sango couldn’t help but notice that Kagome had a small fuzz trail that was climbing her spine from her tail. That led her eyes to a small lavender stripe on each side of her spin just above her hips. The fuzz trail would soon cover the ends near her spine. They got out and dried Kagome discovering the trail for her self shivered when she touched it. Kagome had to labor to get her tail dry; thank god for battery-powered blow dryers she thought. As they walked back Sango couldn’t help it.
“Kagome?” she looked at the demon exterminator. A small grin still playing on her face, Sango blushed. “Can I…” Kagome cocked her and frowned. “Can I touch your tail?” Kagome made a thought full face as she looked at it. What harm could it do?
“Ya go a head.” She moved closer to the woman and Sango reached out feeling the soft fur. Then Kagome tensed and Sango frowned pulling away when she saw Kagomes face flush. “Uuuuummm” Kagome shivered and felt warm allover. “Hehe that’s a bit embarrassing.” Sango blushed a quickly looked at the ground.
“I… I…” she looked up at Kagome felling total mortified. But Kagome just shook her head.
“Don’t sweat it.” Sango breathed a sigh of relieve.
“So Kagome…” the youkai girl looked to the path ahead. “What do you think got into Sesshoumaru?” Kagome shook her head.
“I don’t know, its like I became youkai and instantly I’m worth his time.” She started to chew on her lip. “And what was with that look?” Sango furrowed her brow at Kagome.
“What do you mean?” Kagome looked at her wide-eyed, she hadn’t meant to say it out loud. But it was to late now.
“Well when he left he looked at me funny…” flashes of his amber seemingly sad eyes narrow at her. “I don’t know how to explain it.” She absently rubbed her forehead where there was a silver crescent moon outlined in black.
“I wont say anything to the boys. Things are strange as it is we don’t want them thinking to much of Sesshoumaru looking at you, they would try and kill him.” She huffed in defeat. “And they’d get the crap beat out of them with out making a dent.” Kagome giggled.
“Very true.” As they entered the camp the girls fell quiet and the boys looked at them, Kouga got up and trotted over to Kagome wrapping one arm around her waist.
The rest of Kagomes day was spent exploring the area with her new senses of coarse with Inuyasha and Kouga in tow. They where intent on watching her incase she lost her self in her new powers. Really she was trying to distract her self from the twisting feeling in the pit of her stomach.
As night fell Kagome settled on the porch with Kouga and tried to sleep. Except all she could do was toss and turn. She knew she was keeping Kouga awake but he didn't say anything.
The next few days she started to feel worse but she did her best to hide it. She tried even harder when she realized she was being watched. She figured it was Sesshoumaru but she didn't say anything and she tried to ignore it. She couldn’t help but feel edgy and she wondered if he knew he was making her more anxious.
The more nervous she got the more Kouga and Inuyasha followed her asking her if she was ok. If she needed to go home for a few days, was she hungry and they asked her every stupid question everyone except her mother would ask when she felt sick or was having a bad day.
At some point she was sitting with Kouga and Inuyasha on the porch and her tail started to twitch as she felt Sesshoumaru's eyes start to burrow in her side. She jumped when Kouga put his hand on her tail to hold it still. She looked at him and smiled nervously trying reassure her mate to be that she was ok. But she wasn’t she felt like her gut was going to explode and all of her muscles where wound as tight as a pocket watch that’s been over wound.
“Kagome?” she looked at Inuyasha and her tail snaked away from Kouga’s restraining grasp. “Are you ok?” she frowned and narrowed her eyes at him. She was tiered of them asking after her all the time.
“Would you quit pestering me?!” she snapped as she stood and draped her tail across her shoulder. She started to walk away and stopped running her hand threw her raven hair. “I told you I’m fine I just need some time.” Then she stormed past Sango not taking a second look.
Sango blinked and looked at the boys then to the form of her retreating friend. Wondering what they did this time. Kouga was frowning and Inuyasha’s ears where flat. She shook her head and walked past them hoping that Kagome would revert to her normal self soon.
At the same time not to far off Kagome sat next to a small creek and winced. She griped her side as it started to throb painfully. She lay down on her back to relive the pain some and looked up to see Sesshoumaru standing over her. She frowned and quickly sat up ignoring the pain. She looked back at him and narrowed her eyes at him.
“What do you want?” she muttered angrily to hide her fear.
“I came to see how you where doing.” She stood up quickly tightening her grip on her side for a moment and let go as she started to walk away. Then he grabbed her shoulder making her freeze. “What are you doing?” she looked back at him trying to hide the fear in her eyes. She knew that if he chose he could crush her, even if she didn't feel like some one was ripping her insides out she couldn’t win.
“Leaving, I want to be alone.” He surprised her by releasing her shoulder.
Kagome blinked slowly and turned away she quickly looked back then started to walk away. She started to feel weird when he touched her. It was almost like there was a magnet attached to him making her want to be closer. She shook her head and kept walking.
When she was out of sight he frowned slightly wondering about her. Why did her blood have to speak to him in that way? Why did it have to say make me yours. He let out a small-undignified snort and walked away.
By the time Kagome got out of Sesshoumaru’s line of sight she wanted to go back to the hut. So she turned around and walked around where she saw him back to the hut. But when she got there and got sat down Kouga walked up behind her. Then he wrapped his arms around her Kagome could smell the pheromones as he nuzzled his face into the crook of her neck.
“Kagome walk with me.” He released her she nodded and as the wondered off Inuyasha was fuming. He had never gotten used to the wimp touching her.
Kouga had his arm wrapped around Kagomes waist. And Kagome wondered if she was ready for this then she wondered if she wanted this. Kouga could smell her distress and stopped pulling her close. He smiled at her.
“Kouga…” he leaned down to her ear and nibbled on it.
“Its ok Kagome…” he kissed just below her ear working his way down her neck making her shiver.
What Kouga and the others didn't know is that Sesshoumaru had been peeking in on Kagome since he left. He just happened to pop in as Kouga kissed her neck making her shiver and making Sesshoumaru growl. The wolf stepped forward making Kagome lean her back against a tree. He wanted her for him self, he wouldn’t kill the wolf or hanyou because that would only drive her away. So what was he going to do?
“But I…” he kissed her collarbone.
“Don’t worry… I’ll be gentle.” He slipped his hand under her shirt then she slipped her tail between them.
She was having a hard time getting around her rushing hormones but she realized she didn't want this. He looked at her hurt and offended at the same time. Kagome could feel her eyes sting as tears clouded them. She stepped to one side keeping her tail between them.
“I… I’m sorry Kouga… but I… I just can’t.” He looked at the ground then back at her his eyes full of sadness knowing that she wasn’t just staling till she was ready she was turning him away all together.
“But Kagome…” she shook her head vigorously. It was like the definitions of her emotions shifted; they seemed to be more or less extreme.
“I don’t know why but I can’t.” she turned around and ran not to the camp but away. He sat on the ground; he would never love anyone but her. Kagome ran not thinking about where she was going; she just needed to go. She wrapped her arm around her waist for a moment as the pain stabbed her but she kept going.
Sesshoumaru watched her knowing that she was too emotional to pay attention to what was around her. When she finally stopped she sat under a tree to try and relax. She felt so bad but she knew that in the end she did the right thing. She rested for a bit then looked at the sky; it was starting to get dark. She knew that she couldn’t make it on foot in this form so she changed. She looked her self over still amazed that this was her body.
She shook the thought away and bounded off; the pain seemed less in this form she thought to her self. In no time flat she had landed just outside the campsite. She walked up and changed. Then she looked around seeing everyone had a long face, and Kouga was gone. She looked at the ground feeling very guilty; she sat down ignoring the questioning looks. Inuyasha could smell her purity now he knew why Kouga left.
“He hasn’t come back yet has he?” she never looked up she could hear everyone shift.
“Yes he did.” She knew Inuyasha was eyeing her she looked up at him.
“Do you know if he’s coming back?” Inuyasha nodded.
“He said he would be back by morning.” Kagome nodded and stood up walking over to a tree then leapt up into one of the branches.